Pieces of the Whole

It feels so good to be back on track, after five long days staying at home. Thank you Alexandre for stepping by to check on me every day - you're the best. Now the flu is gone, I'm back at the gym, school started again and I'm surrounded by great people! Life is good. I was wearing a big smile the whole Monday. It didn't matter that we had long hours of grammar lessons, or that it was unbelievable cold for the season. I still felt like it was my day! Something that deffinitely contributed to my cheerful mood was the phonecall I had with my boss in Oslo. She told me I'll be needed to work 5 weeks this summer. I'm so releived! Now I am looking forward to another summer in my previous student city, with some of the best people I know. I now know that I have a place to go to in 5 weeks, which makes it much easier for me to enjoy my last weeks here in Montpellier. I found peace with the fact that I'm leaving, even though it's going to be difficult to pack up my things and walk down to the trainstation for the last time. After all, I love the easygoing life here. However, while I was ill, I felt like a mess of feelings of nostalgia. I missed my time in Oslo so badly; my old university, the long hours I spent there with my friends. All the ordinary things we used to do together. I suddenly felt so far away from everything, and I had a sudden urge to text my friends in Oslo, getting the latest update, hear what they were doing, how they had planned their summer. Those messages of replies made my days.

My friends always give me a warm welcome when I come back (I always end up in Oslo) and I hope they know how much that means to me. They actually give me the confidence to change my life for a while. Because I know that what really matters will stay the same. However, some days ago I got caught by fear that some day when we'll all be spread around in different cities, I'll regret that I didn't stay longer in the same place. Which again got me thinking; what am I gonna be doing the next years, and where am I doing it? That choice is bigger than I first though. I know that I have to spend some more time in France to really get the language under my skinn. I don't think it's possible to leave France thinking that you'll never come back to stay longer. I just don't know when I'll return. In any case, I just wanted to let you guys know that whatever I do abroad, I wish I could share it with you. I would love to invite you all over to my place to eat cake and talk all night. I realise that the result of settling down in different places means leaving parts of yourself behind when you leave. Parts that you will always be missing and longing for, but that you can never get back. In return they help you build a new perspective on life into your conscience that will forever be a part of who you are. But in order to grow, nothing is more important than your roots. And I know perfectly well where I can find mine. See you soon Oslo.



2 kommentarer


25.04.2012 kl.22:09

Gratulerer med jobb kjre!! GLAD du er endelig frisk!!! lett falle i tanker nr man sitter i sin leilighet syk alene, og srlig utenlands. Hper du finner ut av det du virkelig vil!:) Veldig glad i deg! <3


29.04.2012 kl.18:09

Tusen takk vennen, jeg er veldig lettet over at jeg skal jobbe spass mye!^^ Endelig Oslo-sommer igjen:D Ja det stemmer - veldig lett tenke altfor mye nr man er syk. Fremtiden vil vise hvor jeg ender opp:P Love you too<3

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