What's next?
Another birthday, another year has passed! This time I got to celebrate it in France, enjoying dinner with three of the people that are the most important to me here. Eventually, I ended up having the flu this week, still doing my best to recover from it, but last night turned out to be exactly what I needed; warm and intimate. Thanks to you, Alexandre, Amèlie and Mary. And it got me thinking. Another birthday also means another year ahead! As long as I live it with curiousity, passion and courage, it will make me happy. I'll be focusing on enjoying the ride and not worrying about what's next. I think people in general tend to have a need to plan their lives, which is probably a part of human nature. But honestly, I'm so glad that I don't know where I'll be in 2 years, or 5 or ten. Ok I would like to know where I'll be after this summer, but I'll find it out sooner or later. I know people are very different at this point, but I'm just so grateful of my unpredictable life. I know mum, you don't understand where I get it from, because you've always appreaciated stability and safety. I can't explain it either, but maybe you and dad, by creating a safe space for me to grow up, even though it was separately, gave me a ticket to go out there? That you gave me this spirit by insisting on that I can manage whatever I want? That's what I think, and I appreaciate it a lot.
But sure, some planning is good. For example, I do have to start planning what I'll do when this semester is over. Which is a pretty important choice! Yes, Paris is an easy first option, but the tricky part is to come up with all the back-up plans. First I was thinking "it could be anywhere - I can do my master anywhere". In theory yes, probably. But it is difficult to find a reason to leave France when I'm getting used to the lifestyle, and especially when I speak the language, more or less. Oslo is an option, only becaue I could be reunited with those I love the most, in a city where I created a lot of great memories. But on the other hand, I kind of feel like I would be taking a step backwords. I guess I'll just have to bring all the options on the table, and then, in some months, I'll see where the wind blows.. In the meantime, I'll have to get better soon, cause spring is here!! I don't know how it works down here, if the temperature can change back, but seeing a guy in shorts today can't be anything but a good sign^^
Kathrine
18.feb.2012 kl.09:32
Vi er visst i samme tankeboks;) Og jeg har heller ikke peilig på hvor jeg er om fem-ti år, og det føles i grunnen ganske greit:) Verden er for stor til at man alltid skal holde seg på samme sted!
Håper du blir frisk igjen fort, slik at du kan nyte den franske våren! Når det i dag regner (!) i Oslo, er jeg ganske misunnelig;)
klem
Jeanette
18.feb.2012 kl.14:01
Takk for det, har tatt det ganske rolig de siste dagene, så håper det gir seg snart. Men huff, tenker på hvor ille du må ha hatt det. Jeg synes 1 uke er lenge nok å være syk.. Håper det klarner opp i Oslo, slik at våren får vist seg fra sin beste side der også^^ Fortsatt god helg!
Klem
Kathrine
18.feb.2012 kl.22:23
Ja, å være syk i omtrent 5 uker, var ILLE, men det er jo ille med en uke også, og særlig når man ikke har folk rundt seg som kan varte en opp! Sender deg masse god bedring ihvertfall!
klem
19.feb.2012 kl.19:29
Mit
22.feb.2012 kl.23:38
håper hosten er også borte og du er klar for å nyte våren enda mer!
Så utrolig fint sagt: never regret something that once made you smile!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Helene
07.mar.2012 kl.17:52
Men jeg vil ikke si du går et skritt tilbake dersom du flytter tilbake til Oslo, du kommer bare nærmere de som betyr aller mest for deg i livet (som er den største lykken!), gjør du ikke? :) Bare lillesøsters mening! Glad du trives ihvertfall, og er blitt vant med både språk og livsstil!! ;)
Glad i deg vet du, stor klem <3
Jeanette
15.mar.2012 kl.21:21
Helene!! Ja du har jo rett i det, men greia er at dersom jeg flytter tilbake til Oslo så er det KUN fordi jeg har lyst til å bo i samme by som mine nærmeste. Jeg har egentlig ikke lyst til å studere der. Derfor tror jeg jeg vil prioritere en spennende master på fransk for å utvikle fransken min enda mer, og for å prøve å bo i Paris. Er vel ikke feil det heller vel?;)
Glad i deg også, koselig å lese bloggen din<3
Helene
16.mar.2012 kl.16:12
Koselig å lese bloggen din og, masse fine og dype innlegg! <3